Tuesday, August 23, 2011


I just wanted to post a quick update letting you all know that I finally did it...


My weigh-in was kind of impromptu, but I'm SO glad I decided to do it.  I was feeling a little down and this was the pick-me-up that I needed to get me back on track for my goal by my birthday!

Another WooHoo Weigh-In Under My Belt!!!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Good Days and Bad Days

I have great days.  I have bad days.  I have days when I feel fat.  I have days when I feel skinny.  I have days when I feel like the same 'ol person who never bothered to get off the couch and do something with herself.  I have days when I can tell my clothes are too big.  I have days when my clothes feel too tight.  Some days I just want to quit.  Other days I can't wait to get out and go on a run.  Some days I get a lot of compliments from people, and some days I see people who I haven't seen in months and they don't say anything. 

As you can see...this is all SO flip-floppy for me.  I wish I knew how to feel.  I mentioned in a previous post that losing weight has been a big adjustment.  But then I have times where I feel that it shouldn't be a big adjustment because I really haven't lost that much, and the person next to me has lost a ton!  My clothes feel different, yet I can't fit in the next size down yet.  I have hit a major plateau and it's so frustrating, so some days I feel like this is it for me.  Maybe I'm not meant to be smaller.  Maybe I am?

Do you have days when you feel so blah that you really can't put it into words that make any sense?  Clearly that's how I feel today. 

Sunday, August 14, 2011

My New and Improved Goals

It has been a while since I posted last and I want to bring you all up to speed on what has been happening in my life.  The summer has been just nuts.  With all of the activities and barbecues it seems we are busy all of the time.  Also, the summer is generally a busy time at my job.  Lots of extra time spent working in the evenings and it's really hard to find that balance between work, my family, exercise, and the blog.  Unfortunately, the blog comes last and it has suffered a little bit.  But I see the light, and I hope to be posting more now!

As far as my journey, I'm happy to report that I have almost lost 25 pounds.  I have been losing merely ounces for the last couple of months and it stinks!  Yes, 25 pounds is great, but not good enough for me.  I never wanted it to be about a number, but I think a numeral goal makes me want it even more!  I went back into my weight tracking program and looked at what I had originally entered as a goal.  It's really funny because I wanted to lose a certain amount before my 34th birthday, and I am only 5 pounds away from that.  I had totally forgotten about that goal!  So, here I am, about 3 weeks away from that date, and I am totally ready!  Time to get it together and shed that last 5 pounds!

Every day is a new day and every day is a chance to try again!  Enjoy the rest of your weekend all!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Are you a Diet Saboteur? How to be supportive or not...

Welcome back to the blog.  Yes, it's been a while.  I have lots of excuses, but I don't plan to bore you.  I do want to share something that has been on my mind lately.  I realize that I have made a personal committment to myself to become an overall healthier person.  I believe I have been relatively successful, although I have plateaued, which is totally annoying.  But at any rate...

My thoughts evolve around the people I align myslef with on a daily basis and those I associate with from time to time.  It's been very interesting in this journey to see how people react to me and the comments that I get and the general "I really don't understand why you are trying to do this?" kind of attitude.  I suppose that I'm the one who decided to make this change in my life, and certainly I can't expect other people to jump on board simply because I think it's a great idea.  I have to keep reminding myself, "I am the one who has made a change.  Not everyone else."

Having said that, I think it's important to highlight things I have experienced since the beginning of the year, and I also wanted to touch on a few tips I think might be helpful to those of you out there who are already skinny, naturally beautiful, non-exercising, and overall perfect.  Unfortunately, I have to try at all of those things, and I wish I couold report that I am always successful, but I guess that's the way the world goes around.  So here we go.  I'll start with the "don't and do's" of "What Not to Do and What to Do When You Have a Loved One Who Has Decided To Change His/Her Life."  (Phew, that was long, wasn't it?)  Disclaimer:  I am going to speak in first person, although these are simply my thoughts, and not necesarily true occurrences.  :-)

The Don'ts:

1. Please, please...do not invite me to a restaurant that you know will sabatoge my diet.  People, I have addicting personality, and cannot tell you no.  I just can't.  So, please don't ask.

2. Do not give back-handed compliments.  Those of us who have struggles are well aware that we have struggles.  It isn't necessary for you to point out that I (or someone else) no longer has rolls on one's back like the Michelin man.  Thanks, but no thanks.

3. Don't ask me to exercise with you, knowing that you always have and can still beat me.  It isn't a race.  I'm still going to let you win if it makes you feel better about yourself.

4. When you come into the same public bathroom and have a million stalls to choose from, DO NOT pick the one right next to mine.  What does that have to do with weight loss?  Nothing. I'm just sayin'.

5. Don't give unsolicited advice.  I know we all think we are experts in this area, but we aren't.  My body is different from your body and we operate differently.  Enough said.

6. This one is huge! Do not make comments such as, "Wow, you are going to be awesome and skinny, and then you won't be my friend anymore."  Read that again...it sounds really dumb, doesn't it?

OK, enough of the negative and sarcastic.  I would like to highlight some positive things and give some helpful hints that I (and people like me) need from people like you!

1. When I tell you that I really don't want to exercise, encourage me to go anyway!  By now you know how it makes me feel and I need your support! 

2. If it really is important to you, ask me what you can do to help me.  No, the world does not revolve around me, but throw me a bone, and ask anyway!

3. Let me talk about it!  This is all new territory for me and it is exciting.  For once, I am successful at something.  Even if you don't care, pretend that you do.

4. Treat me the same as you always have.  I am the same.  But now, I have just a little less to love.

5. Compliment me when you see a positive change.  I really need the reinforcement.  I am having a lot of trouble accepting the changes that are happening (as weird as that sounds), so your thoughts are much appreciated. 

6. If you are going to ask me to go with you to a really fab restaurant, be a dear and look at the menu ahead of time.  If you are invested in our relationship, then help me out.  Maybe you could suggest some things that you know would work for me?

Those are just some of the thoughts that I have on this subject.  My mind swirls around it all of the time.  Part of that is because I, myself, am being judgmental.  Part of it is because some of these things have really happened to me.  It's a daily struggle.  I have to admit that sometimes I really hate it.  Being healthy IS NOT easy.  I digress all of the time.  Because I feel  like I'm living this life, I have to try and point out things that I know will help me and others in this very same fight to be healthier and happier.